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Knocked!

Here goes something for the holidays.. This very special morning, I went for grocery shopping with dearest grandma and the maid. After all was set and done, I called up my father for breakfast. As I reached the shop, with my head looking high and low for my father, and there he was with my uncle while having a chit chat.

The man came and got my order. "Buttermilk toast and Teh C Peng, please," I said. (Teh C Peng is tea with milk). While waiting for the order, I chit chatted with the father and the uncle. Soon, came another friend of theirs. Let me just name him Mr.A.

He was not hot.
He was not sexy.
OBVIOUSLY!
He was not my type.

Cause he was someone's father!

Getting back to the story. There I was enjoying my toast and listening to the sounds of old folks talking. Suddenly, the uncle brought up the topic of fasting. He told me that his Church is going to have a 40 days and nights of fasting. The whole point of this event is to collect money, as when everytime you fast, you save. As when you save, you keep the money to be given to the Church.

However, Mr.A being better than anyone else on the table started doing scenes that me and my own two eyes could not imagine seeing. Well, I was exaggerating a bit, sorry. Mr. A started saying that "Why do we have to stupid-ly fast? There is no need to give more money to the Church. We give every Sunday what! 10% of our own salary some more.."

He continued, "Even if we give more, God never gives more.. Look, a lot of people are still having the same salary till this very day! Even the government servants have their salary barred during the rising of the economy! God never helps them!"

The uncle replied "Well, you just have to believe.. Have faith in the Lord.. You should be grateful that God gave you a house, few cars, a wife and children. You are blessed! Some people might want to have that, but they just couldn't! So why not give God more when you are already blessed?"

He snobbed "I gave more than 10% you know, if I calculate.. I give a bit here, and a bit there. It is more than 10%!"

I left after Mr.A, the snob talked too much and made me annoyed. Thank God, dad asked me to leave!

YES I WAS ANNOYED WITH MR.A!

My whole point of the story here is that, we should not be calculative! Yes, the bible states that we should give tithes.. 10% the very least. However, why must you tell the whole world of what you did? It is between you and the Lord above. As a bible verse states that, "Do everything in silent and the Lord will silently reward you.."

He did not see what the Lord has done for him. Mr. A, your daughter is already in the final semester for diploma, isn't that a blessing? That she is able to go through smoothly. Some people who wants to continue their studies are also aren't able to continue due to money shortage!

Another thing that annoys me most about Mr.A is that he doesn't want to give extra to the Lord! My goodness, how could you be so calculative to the One who provides you everything! Yes, He will not give you instantly the "extra" that you need but good things come in small packages. Since he stated that even when you give more, the Lord will not give you more.. Do you know why? He provides, its you who is not contented!

Have faith in Him!

You are still breathing! You still have a family! You still have a job! Not many people has what you have! Not even half as what you have! And you are grumbling? Thank God for all He has given.

Mr. A, I might be young, I might be only 18 years old, but I guess I am wiser than you are. You do not see what the Lord has given, if, God forbids, He took all of those from you, then you will see what he has given you all this while.. Only then, there is no use crying over spilled milk.

So, thank God for everything! Give more, and you shall be given even more! You don't have to force yourself if you can't but when you still can, do it! It is more blessed to give than to receive..

God bless!

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Smile


Just for Alif :D

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Messed

Oh yes, what a beautiful mess this is.

And yes, I am.

You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
and based on your body language,
and shotty cursive I've been reading
You're style is quite selective,
though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
that this is just what happiness is

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are

Although you are biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words, I'm paraphrasing, this relationship we're staging

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
kind and courteous is the life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear
Cause here we are, here we are
Here we are [x7]
We're still here
what a beautiful mess this is
it's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes.

and through timeless words and priceless pictures
we'll fly like birds not of this earth
and tides they turn and hearts disfigure
but that's no concern when we're wounded together
and we tore our dresses and stained our shirts
but it's nice today
Oh, the wait was so worth it.

I wish you would think like this.


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Depressed

Cinta dalam hati- Ungu

Mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku
Mengagumi tanpa di cintai
Tak mengapa bagiku asal kau pun bahagia
Dengan hidupmu, dengan hidupmu

Telah lama kupendam perasaan itu
Menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku
Tak mengapa bagiku cintaimu pun adalah
Bahagia untukku, bahagia untukku

Ku ingin kau tahu diriku di sini menanti dirimu
Meski ku tunggu hingga ujung waktuku
Dan berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya
Dan ijinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja
Tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya
Dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejab saja

p/s: I still care, I still do.
I love you, very much.



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Hotness

Hollywood actors always seemed so perfect in our eyes don't you think.
And damn some of them are just pure hotness..

My own personal list of these hotties will start with my lucky number 6.

Mr John Mayer.
Isn't he just the cutest bad boy you have ever seen? Well, I have no idea whether he is still dating Ex-Mrs. Pitt, but on the plus side, this dude can seriously play the guitar and make me flown away. Guitarists are hot. :D And yes, he has curly hair. Even sexier...

Next on the list will be my one and only Mr. Sexy Eyes.

Josh Hartnett!

Drools. He has caught my eyes ever since before puberty. Those were the days of Pearl Harbour. However, till this very day... I still love how he looks like. Gosh, those sexy eyes. I could stare at them all day long..

Next on my list is...

Mr Josh Duhamel or to be exact Mr. Fergie Ferg.

Well, I can't say much. Suami orang... Later I will be Chris Brown-ed. But he still looks hot. Yes I love guys in suit. Look at how sexy he looks in the suit! Well, I will make sure my husband looks twice as good as he is in the suit.

Next on the list will be my second runner up.
Good spot also what, number 3.

Due to my addiction to Gossip girl,
He is definitely top on my list on the hot guys in Gossip girl..

Mr. Chace Crawford.
Oh, no no no. Other girls may think he's hot. Just not as hot and sexy as...
My beloved Ed Westwick. His stare... Makes me melt everytime. Yeah... As if he has ever stared at me. I mean, my eyes are always glued to him in Gossip girl so literally, he is staring at me. Ed Westwick, you are my definition of pure hotness. Too bad you don't have curly hair.

My runner up (Well, he was my number one...)

Mr. Adam Brody.
My Seth Cohen in The OC.

Indescribable.
100 degrees celcius and above hotness.
Marry me.. If the top on the list doesn't propose...

The top on the list will be...


Mr Geli Mat! (Go youtube.com)
See how sexy he is! Since everyone has this Vampire-gasm. I have my own vampire to drool over. Edward Cullen is so yesterday. I have my own tanned version. Pale vampires are ugleh.

Well, Mr Geli Mat didn't propose to me.

So, I will be Mrs. Brody.